Here I am. A member of "the club" that noone wants to join and which only a select few are able to leave. I think finagling your way out of the mob would be easier, and perhaps more pleasant.
Anyway…here I am, like it or not.
So who am I? I am the "perfect" infertile. Why am I "perfect"? Because my RE says so. Every test I have had done has been "perfectly normal". HSG, SHG, every ultrasound, every round of bloodwork. I have had a few cysts here and there. Still have one that has decided to make my right ovary its comfy little home for a few months now. But even with the cyst, my RE says all my hormones and cycles have been "perfect". Yeah, except in my book…perfect = baby. No baby here.
How did I get here? Lets take a look….
2001: Well it all started when I married the other "perfect" half (yeah RE says he's "perfect" too) nearly 5 years ago. I stopped BCPs shortly after we said "I do". We started like most couples, deciding to let nature take it's course and just hope it would happen. Well it didn't.
2004: I decided that the weight I was carrying around probably was not helping things, and frankly I hated myself, so I decided to undergo a Gastric By-pass in January of 2004. Since I was told not to try to conceive for at least 6 months, we decided to pursue my dream of adopting. Adoption had always been my first choice in starting a family as I was adopted. We started the process in March of 2004. You can read about it here. Around October of 2004 we got the go ahead from my surgeon to start trying to conceive again. Unlike in the beginning, we were actually "trying" now. It did not take long for us to realize we were staring down the barrel of infertility.
2005: Our first appt with an RE was in March of 2005. We started with all the regular testing including an HSG for me and a SA for Mr. PI. We were both "perfect". Good to know. Between June and October we attempted 3 IUIs with Clomid, but only once did we actually get to do the actual IUI. And I am pretty sure the RE screwed that one up by not listening to me when I said I thought I was ovulating. I think we were a day late. Turns out I was probably right. But water under the bridge at this point. One thing I did get from Clomid was a cyst that does not seem to want to go away. In October we got a second opinon from my current RE (Dr. K.)…LOVE HIM!!! Unfortunately he is out of state so really we would only use him for IVF if we got to that point. Local RE insisted on doing a laparoscopy. That was scheduled for December, but anemia got the best of me and the procedure was postponed until February.
2006: Surgery rescheduled again for March due to anemia. Sought the treatement of a hemotologist and ended up having iron infusions 2x / week for 4 weeks. Surgery in March rescheudled again for April because iron not quite high enough yet. At this point I was tired of doing nothing and decided to go for an IVF cycle. Called Dr. K and got the go ahead for the cycle. Our first IVF cycle started in April and ended with a BFN on May 11. This past Saturday I was back up to see Dr. K for a sonohystogram and another HSG. Still "perfect". Oh and so were the 2 embryos we transferred, and so was my uterine lining on the day of transfer. Also had some bloodwork done on Saturday to check thyroid and prolactin. Yup, you guessed it…"perfect".
So that's how I got here…now where am I going?
We are currently planning a FET in June. Dr. K said to try and take advantage of the potential benefits of the HSG this month. There are many stories of women getting pg after HSGs who had previously been unable to conceive. Not exactly sure why this happens but some suggest that the tubes are "cleaned out" by the dye. So who knows. We'll do our best, but I am not holding my breath. I am focusing more on the upcoming FET. As much as I ADORE Dr. K, I would love to call and cancel the FET!!